Friday, June 27, 2014

A Brief Update

I haven't blogged around these parts in ages. Soooo much has been going on. Mainly, I was pregnant. It was another roller coaster pregnancy except this one had the most tragic outcome ever. 

I was admitted to the hospital for the second time (read about the first admittance here) on June 3rd after having another heavy bleed at home. After 10 days, two very heavy bleeds, three days on Magnisium sulfate and two blood transfusions (four bags of blood and one bag of plasma,) Kallan Jay was born on June 13, 2014 at 4:23am at 25 weeks 2 days. He weighed 2lbs exactly and was 13.75 inches long. He fought very hard but sadly his lungs were just too immature. He got his angel wings at 12:27pm while I held him in my arms.
I want to write up all the details but my heart can't take it right now. I'm devastated and confused and kind of angry. I just don't believe it. I'm in denial and numb.
I checked out of the hospital on the 15th and promptly packed our car to drive 19 hours straight through the night to escape reality. We're spending four weeks with the Ketchup fam. 
I'm dreading going home because I can't hide forever. 
People have been asking what they can do for me and aside from your thoughts and prayers, Nurse Loves Farmer is doing a fundraiser to raise money for the hubs and I to get memorial rings. The ring I plan to get has a glass stone in the center that will contain some of Kallan's ashes so I can have him with me daily. 

Monday, April 15, 2013

From Ketchup…Stomach Flu From Hell

**Disclaimer: This blog post was written at 2:30 am in the heat of the moment…I love my hubs and I appreciate him greatly. I was sick, irrational, and well isn’t that when the BEST blog posts are created?? We, in the Ketchup household have just finished a utterly oobertastic round of the stomach flu which rocked our home starting Friday, 3/29, and hitting me the day before my birthday, 4/2, and wrapping up a week after the Bacon crew rolled in. Soooo in all fairness…yeah!
Stomach flu...God's marital challenge. What kind of spouse did you marry?
"Mom!" Yelled over the baby monitor at 1:30am ... is most likely the worst and only time you dread hearing your name uttered, well...other then when you FINALLY sit down on the couch, after putting the kidlets down for bed, with a big fat bowl of ice cream...ready to dive in. Alas, you are ripped from your sweet, sweet slumber only to just make it to the bedside (or in my case the crib side) ready to catch the putrid vile sludge that escapes the lips of your wee tot! So is the life of a mom dealing with the stomach flu! Oh you stomach flu rot in hell why don't you!!!!!
Sitting on the toilet after just holding the bowl for your 3 year old vomiting son while you shoot bullets out your own ass rear you can hear your spouse snoring in the next room! To kill him or not? Is he the snoozer or is it you?
The only thing worse then having to catch and clean up this vile sludge is having to return to bed (your stomach in knots for you are still suffering from the nights past stomach trauma of your own) only to find your sweet spouse literally taking care of the forest...sawing logs! I'm convinced at this point the only reason I don't put all of us out of our misery is pure exhaustion and the fact that the aforementioned stomach trauma of your own has left you weak and feeble and therefore you are likely unable to successfully carry out the deed because of your own malnutrition! Who wants to screw that up, am I right? You probs only have one chance to get that shit right before he catches on! Right??!!
So you return to bed trying to fall asleep (whilst your stomach gurgles away trying to reformat your giga hard-drive) and you wonder if you ever truly loved the slumbering sloth next to you...will.refrain.from.bodily.harm. You will! The authorities will only take your children and now surely you've earned that shit...I mean the right to care for them entirely. I just caught throw up for crying out loud!!! For the 3rd time tonight alone!!!! Damn. Andplusalso, the stomach flu for you and both your kids on your birthday is truly a gift that keeps on giving!!! (See what I did right there?? Keeps on giving! HA!)

Funny Confession Ecard: I don't want to sleep like a baby. I just want to sleep like my husband.
Very early on in our marriage, long before kids, the hubs and I made a deal that I would handle the majority of the poop and he would handle all things voms related. (This is a topic I feel all couples planning to have a family should discuss before kids). Well although the ratio of poo to voms is entirely swayed he has definitely had to deal with the poo factor…however, I have dealt with far too much voms…I’m not the voms handling parent gosh darn it!!!

Monday, March 25, 2013

From Bacon...Road Trippin'

It's less than a week until the Bacons and the Ketchups are ALL together...for the first time EVER!!!!!!! (The Ketchup littles have yet to meet my littlest.)

Saturday, March 30th, Hubs and I will load up the 2 year old and 8 month old and start the 1300+ mile drive to the 'Ho (Idaho.)

It's an understatement to say I'm nervous. Scared? More accurate. Terrified? There ya go!!!

We're splitting the trip into four days (6ish hours driving a day) to break it up into more manageable bits.

Anyone have any hints or tips for a car trip with a busy toddler?

And stay tuned for loads of posts and Instagrams of all the fun the Deannas and families will be having!!!